This is a record of some things I wish to hold myself accountable for.
Today I’m deciding to not be so freaked out at every new thing that comes my way.
There are things you like to do, and then there are things you are good at doing. Once in a while they coincide, and sometimes they don’t. There comes a time when you start to realise that you’re not going to be good at everything you do. Life has, and will continue to, present lots of opportunities for you to do things you damned well don’t want to.
Day by day I’m learning how not to tremble in my shoes at the slightest hint of something unfamiliar. I’m learning to take these things in my stride, no matter how unwilling I may be to do so. More importantly, I’m learning not to fight so much – not that I was much of a fighter in the first place. I’m getting used to the fact that I don’t always have to be right, that things don’t always happen the way I want them to, and that, from time to time, I will screw up. I am, essentially, like every other person walking this earth. But I still hope for the best and try to give a little more than what’s expected. Because you know what? You’re gonna be faced with unfamiliar situations for the rest of your life. You’re going to have a lot more firsts way more disconcerting that your first day at school, and you’re going to have to learn how to deal with them.
As for the lessons along the way? I’ve learnt that life isn’t fair, if it was you’d look like me, and I’d be able to run/write/dance/sing/kill zombies like you. I’ve learnt that there’s no karma, that good things happen and bad things happen and life goes on in spite. I’ve learnt you can’t please everyone, and you’re sure as hell going to offend some people – if you don’t you’re probably doing it wrong.
And to end, five things that I should have no problem with
1. Being imperfect
2. Letting go
3. Doing the right thing
4. Grinning and bearing it
5. Being fair
Went to TM for lunch with the girlos after Chem SPA exam during our 2-hour long break. I was appalled by the fact that we don’t get good service in return despite having to pay an additional 10% service charge on top of the 7% GST. Since we pay for their service, shouldn’t we enjoy better treatment instead of having to wait 10 minutes before our drinks are served, another 10 for the soup or even having to repeat four times that we want a refill for our glasses? And it didn’t help that they were all pulling long black faces or even throw you a glaring stare when you happen to glance at him/her while looking around. But the Chinese staff were definitely much more friendlier, polite and approachable. Here’s the difference between part-timers & full-time staff. Luckily the hawaiian pizza tasted okay, or else..
If I am going to die today, the last thing on my mind will be PW.
To hell with PW.
Thanks.
Last night I went to the condo to play squash alone for 1.5 hours and I could barely walk home after that. Damn and I made a de-route about East Meadows just to avoid walking past the HUGE CONSTRUCTION WORKER CROWDS near the MRT.
Here’s a simple illustration:
They stare at every single one who walk past them and this always freak me out….. And I am so fed up because they mass-gather there almost every night. Some don’t even bother to dispose the beer cans that they drank and simply left it there. Some preposterous ones even had the gall the throw them into the drain! I am going to take actions if this problem still persists.. I am already very pissed off since the beginning of the year ya’know!!
On Friday our CG had to do service learning at Zion Home For The Aged where we split into two groups – interact & cleaning. The former had to interact with the elderly and play games with them while the latter, as the group name suggests, cleaned the home.
Using the same old trick, all of us pretended that we forgot all about Chuying’s birthday and I think I can declare that we’re all pretty good at it since we really looked nonchalant and whatnot. After wasting a little time here and there, we finally sang the birthday girl the birthday song and gave her the presents we bought for her. Heheh then we took group photos; after which Miss Yap, who walked past us, also joined us for a few shots.
Here’s a short video dedicated to Miss Chuying. Hahaha.
It was twas fun and it’s a pity that not all the girlos can go ehub-bing with us but nevertheless, the remaining of us who made it there for lunch sure did enjoy ourselves. Well I had a hard time gobbling down my 2-piece chicken meal (KFC) because I had a toothache =.=
After a week of experiencing emotional up/downturns, I’m glad to say that I’ve more or less learnt to take things in stride… There’s still an unknown fear in me for the uncertainties that lie ahead of me, but at least, I received a tiny bit of assurance somehow. Perhaps good things do happen after the bad ones go. First of all, I would like to express my deep gratitude to the lovelies who were there to encourage me and to tell me that everything’s gonna be okay. It’s times like this that I realise who are the “true” friends and who can merely be associated with just an ordinary friend or simply just an acquaintance of mine. It’ll take time before everything can be finalised so I will continue to enjoy life till then.
We (Sis, her BF & me) went to town on Sunday first before fetching my Aunt & Eken to Holland V for brunch. Then we went to the bakery shop called Provence. To do what? Of course we went there to buy bread lar. Lol and I love the bread so much it was so soft, tender and fluffy at the same time… I promise I will be back again!
